And to think the shit was genuine . maybe I’m the girl with to much Hope . I kept telling myself this nigga isn’t using me to occupy his time . lmao I was wrong ; so wrong . I thought I’d be the last person he’d do that to =/ I’d occupy my time with someone who wasn’t relevant . I’m pissed off but then again I shouldn’t be . a friend once told me “don’t have expectations” well I did . jokes on me ; I swear April fools was a couple days ago . it’s been real my nigga … Or has it been ? Smmfh

Just because I miss you and like being around you doesn’t mean I want you back. Your just the only person that knows me better than anyone. Hello you were my first love ; it’s just feels good being around someone that doesn’t judge me and knows me. Plus we’re the same in so many ways . but honestly just as much as you don’t want me back I don’t want you back either , we’re not good together . and plus you been in to many “friendships/relationships” since me and it would hurt to know after all that you would want me back . so I’m just fine with the friendship thing ; I’d be more happier this way =)))))

I feel better .!

I have three guys ; well technically I have one (that I don’t want) … anyways . Guy 1: supposedly he’s my BF? Long story short one night a guy asked to be my man, my bestfriend stole my phone and said “yes” and he’s been pressed on my dick ever since . talking about babies, marriage, moving in together 0_o tf? I’m such a nice person Idk how to break his heart . he annoys the fuck outta me and he’s the last nigga I want texting my phone (I know thats bad)
Guy 2: My dark chocolate ;-) mmmm mmm mmm what can I say I like me some chocolate . we’ve been talking for six months now . No he’s not the best looking guy but he’s walkable (I could tale him out and not feel ashamed) his personality is amazing . he always has me laughing . when we first started talking we both caught feelings . but he doesn’t want a relationship because “he wants to be financially okay to support him and his girl” … B.s if you ask me . he’s all about his paper ; and I like that about him he’s got ambition and he’s going places in life . but wtf ? He’s changed a lot . I don’t get calls like that ; and when we do talk its not that long . but when I see him … Mmmmmm ;-) thats all imma say . I’m just confused with him . he needs to open his eyes
Guy 3: my ex ….. Sheesh I can write a book about him . long story short he’s my first love ; he was my other half ; my everything . I never had trust issues with him ; because I knew he was in love with me ……… Until he cheated on me . I forgave him because I loved him and I tried to make it work but my trust issues got outta hand . I’m kinda glad he cut me off, I had a chance to look back and evaluate myself and I must say I’m a better person ; so I thank him for that . BUT , we’ve been hanging out ALOT lately and I must say I’m not complaining =) only thing is he’s been paying for a lot of things for me “friends” don’t do that ; because I be damn .! I’m trying not to catch those old feelings back but its hard he’s been an absolute gentleman to me and sad that my ex treats me better than guy #2 . maybe he missed my company idk . but he has this girl that he loves ; and he said they’re just friends now . I just hope he’s not trying to occupy his mind with me So he won’t think about her . or maybe I’m overthinking things . idk ; but I don’t wanna fall head over heels for him again if its just nothing . so I think I should step back from him buttttt I don’t want to ; I love his company and he makes me smile the way I haven’t smiled in a long time . I just wish I knew his intentions . blahhhhhh

Sooooo thats my confused membrane ; it feels so good to get that OFF my chest . sorry for writing a lot . but y’all mfs don’t know me so I don’t care if you judge =p

Goodnight , peaceeee